lost cause...

no matter what i do.

or how hard i try.

it's still not what you want.


i'm confused.

i'm hurt.

i'm lost in the sea of my thoughts.


i don't know what to do.

i don't know what to say.

i'm trying my hardest to give up on you.

let go... breath in...

and out.


time to begin another chapter in my life. you're welcome to join me, but you've already put the book down...



here's to a fresh start.

here's to not making the same mistakes.

here's to falling in love with myself.

here's to crying less and laughing more.

here's to me. and you. and you too.

plastic bags...

after months of searching, i have decided to get an apartment with my co-worker...

i know, i know, living alone is most ideal, but sweet jesus, shit is expensiiiive!

we are getting a two bedroom, two bathroom apartment, approximately 1000 square feet... i'm so excited!






today, i decided that i would make a purchase...

i bought a dress. i got it from Beyond The Rack. I cannot WAIT to wear it!










oh, and why didn't anyone tell me that falling in love hurt so much? that would have been excellent advice...


just keep going.
just keep going.
just keep going.


i will not give up on my life.

sunday funday...

i had the most amazing weekend!

well, most amazing sunday. saturday, i layed in bed all day... i was okay with it.



but sunday!


my sister-in-law, two of her daughters and myself ventured downtown for Craft Sabbath. it made me wanna make crafts like crazy!



we hopped on trax to go to the mall, since the girls really wanted a train ride.
they loved it.



then we stopped for lunch at whole foods. i love ellyannah's space-cadet expressions.



thennn, it was earth jam. that's basically the earth day festival, which is basically hippie bullshit weirdos day. it was quite the people-watching extravaganza...
but still, the girls had a blast. it was really nice to get out with kim.



thennnn, blake and i decided to grab some candy and go see a movie. we went and saw the conspirator. i thought it was a great flick. it definitely kept me very entertained.



above all, i was smiling, laughing and thankful for every second of the day.

i'm in love with that feeling. i hope i find it more often.